Today in church,
They tell me I am “unclean.”
Yes, they said. “Unclean.” “Dirty.” “Broken.”
I said, “But how?
My legs carry me to quiet gardens. My nose catches the scent the honeysuckle. My eyes soak in the colors of the sunset. My arms lift heavy boxes and my hands stroke soft kitties. My feet keep me balanced and tap to contagious rhythms. My mind reasons, imagines, and creates. My spirit is always shifting, processing, feeling, listening to the undercurrent of words, movements and actions. My soul leaps when it comes across the Divine.
So “Why?” I ask, do you say that I am unclean?
You want me to feel guilty and grateful.
You want to control my feelings and actions.
You want to guide me into a certain way of thinking, feeling, living.
Always indebted, always broken, always failing, never enough, never enough never enough.
You tell me there is something inherently broken, something inherently wrong with me.
Yet I am supposed to love myself? To see my worth? To live in this body and soul and love them for what they are?
Then something is wrong. Something is wrong with the method and something is wrong with the reason. Because this, this is not what I am.
I am whole and always have been. I am human. I fail, yes.
But I am more than my failures, my alleged broken and “sinfulness.”
I am human and therefore,
I am also Love.
And isn’t that what’s the most important of all?